2026-09-3
September 3rd, Thursday
hi all whats up
so it turns out i absolutely hate this layout, like its ok for learning and basics and such, but im sad it is lacking a personality, so ive decided to redo it whole and do my own graphic design of the web bc coding is not enough apparently. ill keep the brain theme for sure bc that was my og plan but as i moved from hotglue i wasnt sure how to do that here and now i still dont know but i have more confidence.
so ive already started on the side with it, bc hehe i started using pulsar or whateber name has the program. im still figuring out the exact look of it, but trying few different things and we will see
it has been months of learning now and it has finnaly got to that point where i actually have to plan things out and have a pinboard with all the details i know i want to include to avoid redoing everything 16x qs i was doing till currenly lmao im proud of myself. thats all see u
2026-07-30
30th July, Tuesday 2025
hi. today i discovered that you dont have to have the full entire code for the layout copied in each new site and you can divide it and have it organised neatly. tried to do that, ...
by trying that and instead of just tidying it i actually also messed up absolutely each part of the site somehow and got so confused and angry at myself that i always overrestimate myself when deciding to tweak things i am not even remotely close to be able to grasp the basics of. so my progress was just me trying to correct things that previously worked again while separating everything while trying to do like everything i could find to force one of the sidebars on the other side, which i was just not able to do, because im doing something wrong and i was not able to understand what and i dont wanna use ai on that, because i want to actually better understand. and then after doing all that, i learned you can also have a separate style file that has everything that is css together in one place, nice and clean....
so obviously, i had to do all that over again the second time and yup, messed it up again. but now it is all sorted and nice and clean and yet im not able to enjoy it, bc im a beginner and it felt okay when it was in one file just the same as it is now. and that is a sign i have no idea what i am doing but im sure ill be able to appreciate it in the future and be so glad i did that. i hope. also, today i have realised that there might be other programs in which you can code that is not 14 opened pages in firefox with the neocities editors and another 14 of the site from checking what the fuck changed on there. so yeah. the sorting was a bit easier after that as visual studio code is less pain to use. then it also hit me that someone had the unfortunate luck to stumble upon this site while i was frantically editing and saving and reloading to correct everything and deleting and redoing and trying again so it is a pleasure to discover i dont have to shame myself publicly again ever. but i still contemplated why i even bothered to start to learn this other than i have way too much time and that i used to edit my Tumblr layout back in 2017. but i think the more i suffer while this, the more i learn so.. hopefully itll get better.